I was raised in Jamaica by parents who instilled in me the importance of a good education to attain a good profession. In our house, a good profession was along the lines of doctor, lawyer, teacher, or accountant—jobs that would ensure good income and success. The picture of success was to land a good job, climb the ladder, and stay ‘til retirement. Additionally, success meant getting married, buying a nice house, and having kids.
So, out of university, what did I do? I became an accountant/auditor.
Let me be honest: I did not love my profession, but I was good at what I did. I made a good living. I was well on my way to “success”…
Fast forward to today.
My life looks N-O-T-H-I-N-G like that picture that was painted for me by well-meaning parents. In fact, life today is pretty much the opposite of that definition of success.
A few years ago, my life took a turn in a different direction. I laid my life down at the foot of the Cross and placed my faith in Christ. My life became His to use for His ordained purposes. Success was re-defined for me by the Savior. My life has consisted of interesting turns, U-turns, ups, and downs—not the straight-line path defined by the world.
- I didn’t get married until my late 30s.
- I have no children.
- I went to seminary and completed my master’s degree in biblical studies. (How did I get to that from accounting?)
- Now in my 40s, when most people are settling into a career, I am just getting started in a new career—writing.
This is NOT the life I pictured or even dreamed for myself.
Some days, I wonder, what is going on? This is CRAZY! But, in my hearts of hearts, I would not change anything because I know that being obedient to the Lord and trusting Him to unfold His purpose for my life is best…even when I don’t understand how it will end.
There are days—like yesterday—when my faith and trust in God wanes, and I wonder if I can really trust Him. There are so many days when, even for a moment, I want my life to look the way I dreamed it would be. But…
- I come back to the Cross.
- I come back to His Word.
- I come back to the words of songs like these:
Spirit, lead me where my trust is without borders.
Let me walk upon the waters wherever You would call me.
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander,
and my faith will be made stronger in the presence of my Savior.
Turn your eyes upon Jesus.
Look full in His wonderful face,
and the things of Earth will grow strangely dim
in the light of His glory and grace.
All to Jesus I surrender.
All to Him I freely give.
I will ever love and trust Him,
in His presence daily live.
I am reading through the book of Jeremiah right now, and his life encourages me. He was called to do an extremely HARD and thankless task. He faced moments of despair and discouragement. However, obedience to God trumped his feelings every time. To me, Jeremiah is a picture of success not because he made good money, had friends, had a wife and kids—because he had none of those things. He was successful because he kept saying yes to the Lord in trust and obedience.
Today, again, Lord, I say yes.
Have a great day!